This has been a rough week for me, and it took a huge toll on my walk with Christ. Stressed about money, about providing for my wife and I, about lack of work and whether or not Christmas was going to happen (gift wise, at least) put in a deep depression and laziness.
I put off all I could. I slept in, failed to really focus on school work and barely made it through my last week this semester, didn’t focus on dishes or housework and spent a good chunk of time just gaming and zoning out. I didn’t want to move or do anything.
In truthfulness, I allowed the Enemy’s lies to have an effect on me, and I am ashamed that I didn’t run to God. I let him take over and invade my life and my thoughts, saying extremely negative things to myself and making myself feel worthless. It was an extremely dark place that, if it wasn’t for my wife, could’ve ended up terribly for all involved.
Thankfully, I’m back. Though I didn’t deserve it, God revealed His Grace and Faithfulness in our lives and we are on slightly better footing.
May God be praised for all that He has done and all the He plans to do.
Praise be unto the LORD Most High.
“Thou art my God, and I will praise thee: thou art my God, and I will extol thee.” – Psalm 118:28