Fellow believer and blogger, Megan, posted about this in her recent contribution to Me Too Moments for Moms entitled When The Name Of The Pain Is Shame. Megan spoke about how an issue in her old life (her life before Christ) came back to haunt her and she was once again faced with the shame of the decisions she had made and the Enemy was doing all he could to discourage her in her walk with Christ.
I recently had the same experience. And I’m sure many of us have also been in the same boat.
As I have briefly shared in earlier posts, I have a very questionable past. I have made decisions that I shouldn’t have made, spent time with people who were less than wholesome, and even spent some time in jail for the mistakes I’ve made.
I found wholeness in Christ while I was in jail, but I failed to follow through for quite some time, jumping from faith to faith, trying to find something to satisfy me. During that time, I made some other major mistakes, and one decided to come back to bite me.
The long and short of it is that I apologized, sought forgiveness and cut all ties, while wishing them the best in Christ.
But for those of us who are of the faith who have shady pasts that come back to bite you, remember one key thing: the old you is dead and gone.
When writing to the Corinthians, Paul tells them, “Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things become new.” (2 Corinthians 5:17)
However, this does not mean that we do not struggle in the flesh and with our old selves. Paul knew the reality of struggling with the flesh. He told the Christians in Rome:
“For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh,) dwelleth no good thing: for to will is present with me; but how to perform that which is good I find not. For the good that I would do I do not: but the evil which I would not, that I do…O wretched man that I am! who shall deliver me from the body of this death?” (Romans 7:18-19, 24; KJV)
As we know, Paul’s answer to that question, the ONLY answer to that question is Jesus:
“There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus…” (Romans 8:1)
But the question stands, what do we do when the old us tries to rear it’s ugly little head?
We run to the cross and we crucify it.
Jesus told His disciples, “If any man will come after me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross daily, and follow me.” (Luke 9:23)
This denying of ourselves and taking up our crosses is not a one time deal. It is a daily occurrence. It is something that we must do every single day.
So, when you wake in the morning, crucify yourself. When you are encouraged to take that one drink, crucify yourself. When you are tempted to watch that one porn video, crucify yourself. When you are just itching for that next score, crucify yourself.
Deny yourself. Take up your cross DAILY and follow Jesus.
This is a call to death that leads to eternal life.
This is what the Sovereign LORD says.