I’ve been working through the letters of the New Testament for the past few months, chapter by chapter.
Reading through Paul’s letters can convict a Christian’s heart. Paul is not a push-over. He gets straight to the heart of the matter and he is strict when it comes to dealing with sin and unfaithfulness in the Church. Paul was the right kind of preacher.
Recently, I’ve been faced with a terrible truth: I might be the wrong type of preacher.
In Paul’s first letter to his “son”, Timothy, he tells him what the point of being a preacher in and to the Church is:
“The aim of our charge is love that issues from a pure heart and a good conscience and a sincere faith.” (1 Timothy 1:5)
This is the charge that Paul gives Timothy, and anyone who aspires to the role of preacher or pastor. We are to show love that comes from a pure heart, good conscience and sincere faith.
But that’s not what convicts me. What hits me the hardest is what Paul says next:
“Certain persons, by swerving from these, have wandered away into vain discussion, desiring to be teachers of the law, without understanding either what they are saying or the things about which they make confident assertions.” (6-7)
I have made various points throughout my career as a blogger and as a “preacher” through Reclaim the Faith. I have challenged false views, made assertions regarding political decisions, tore apart arguments regarding homosexuality and verses taken wildly out of context, and made other “confident assertions”. And I can’t help but wonder: am I the wrong kind of preacher?
Am I a preacher like Paul states Timothy should be like, one with a pure heart, good conscience and sincere faith? Or am I the kind of preacher who doesn’t understand what he’s saying and doesn’t understand what I make confident assertions about?
I’m not putting this out there so you can tear me apart. I just want to put it out there that sometimes, I have doubts about my preaching. I have doubts about my goals for what I write and my purpose for reacting to certain events.
I love the LORD, and I love His Church, and I strive to make sure she understands the words of her God.
Pray for me, Church, as I strive to be the right kind of preacher, the preacher the Church needs in these last hours.